I see a girl
I see a girl, head bent over a chapter book. She sits on a white vinyl beanbag chair, hair falling over her face. Her brow is furrowed with concentration. She finishes the last page and closes the book reverently. She finished her first chapter book. She is seven years old.
I see a girl, sitting at the breakfast table. She has braces and her hair is cut in a blunt bob, thick and straight. She is wearing a sweater with puffed sleeves and hearts knitted into the fabric. This is her favorite sweater – it is picture day. She won’t want to smile. She gnaws on a whole bagel sprinkled with sea salt. She is reading a huge hardcover book. The title is “Gone With The Wind.” She is 12 years old.
I see a girl, sitting at a desk in front of a window. She gazes at the view below, Primrose Hill gently rising in the distance. The street lamps are on. She bends her head over a piece of lined paper. She is doing her homework. The task is a three-paragraph essay about “A Clockwork Orange.” She struggles to organize her thoughts about the mighty novel. The violence upsets her. The language intrigues her. Her pen scratches against the paper on the desk, halting frequently. She is 16 years old.
I see a young woman, cross-legged on the gleaming oak floor of a studio apartment on Beacon Street. Her cheeks are flushed. Her hair is long and straight, falling to her waist. She is wearing blue jeans and a skinny black top. She dresses with an offhand carefulness. She is awkward. Sitting nearby are another young woman and two young men. They lean their heads together over an outline on the floor. They are designing the first issue of an underground campus magazine. There is beer and homemade guacamole. She wrote the cover story. She has a crush on the boy who edited her work. She is 20 years old.
I see a young woman, steno pad clutched in her hand. She shifts nervously in the hard metal chair. She is at a school board meeting. She tries to focus on the six men and one woman in the front of the room. They are talking about line items in a budget. Her pen moves on the paper, noting every word spoken. She has been at work since 8 a.m., and the clock just struck 11 p.m. She is thinking about the long drive home. She is hungry; she did not have time to eat dinner. Her first day as a reporter was long and frightening. She is 23 years old.
I see a woman, nearing middle age. She sits at a round wooden table. She kicks her foot against the table leg. A baby monitor carries the sound of her daughter’s voice to her ears. She is looking at a computer screen. The cursor blinks. It blinks again. Her hands are poised over the keys, hesitant. Her hair is dark, with a stripe of white in the front. She is defiant – she will not cover the white with dye. She likes it. Her fingers linger over the keyboard. They caress the letters. The cursor blinks. She is 35 years old.
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Originally published at Chicken And Cheese by the lovely Mrs. Chicken – a freelance writer (who is always looking for work – hint, hint), wife, and mother to The Poo. An East Coast girl, she is learning to cope with life on the prairie while her husband pursues a doctorate at a Huge Midwestern University. She blogs with dreadful regularity at Chicken And Cheese, and is totally psyched to be hanging out at Julie’s place today.
This post is part of the monthly blog exchange sponsored by Motherhood Uncensored. Please visit Mrs. Chicken’s blog today to see which oldie but goodie I dredged up for her to re-publish.











April 1st, 2007 at 5:53 am
A very nice posting…thanks for sharing Mrs Chicken with us!
April 1st, 2007 at 6:49 am
Mrs. Chicken, I am always impressed and touched by your writing. Also, I really need to sit down and go through your archives! Thanks!
April 1st, 2007 at 7:00 am
Beautiful post!
April 1st, 2007 at 7:43 am
SUPER COOL POST!
April 1st, 2007 at 8:02 am
Mrs. Chicken, it seems so jarring to see the words “nearing middle age” associated with you. It must be the t-shirts you wear that make you seem so much younger
I love seeing these Best-Of posts, because they represent not only good writing, but they show what really means the most to a person when it comes to blogging. You had a bezillion fantastic posts to choose from, but you chose this one. Love it!
April 1st, 2007 at 10:03 am
beautiful…the tracing of continuity through your lifelong love affair with text.
and i’d missed this one the first time ’round, so i was glad to catch it here.
April 1st, 2007 at 10:37 am
Lovely. I agree with bon. The flow of life through words. Should we all have such rich lives.
April 1st, 2007 at 11:43 am
I always wanted my hair to gray exactly that way! Instead it falls out.
April 1st, 2007 at 12:03 pm
This was lovely. And it rang so true for all of us who can mark the milestones in our lives by the books we were reading at the time.
April 1st, 2007 at 1:35 pm
Nearing middle age at 35? Don’t you know that 40 is the new 20??
It’s interesting to look back at all of our various identities over the years.
Nice post!
April 1st, 2007 at 4:41 pm
Aw, cool post! Great reflection on life.
April 1st, 2007 at 5:45 pm
I really enjoyed reading your post. It made me try and think what books I was reading at different milestones.
April 1st, 2007 at 5:56 pm
What was wonderful.
What a writer.
I am not worthy to share the blogworld with you.
April 1st, 2007 at 7:19 pm
It’s funny, I kept trying to reconcile this post with your voice – it could be you (life-fact wise, for all I knew) but it didn’t sound like you.
It was lovely also, though! Fun exchange.
Still hoping your enjoying Denver when we can’t be there…..
April 1st, 2007 at 7:24 pm
That was lovely.
April 1st, 2007 at 8:47 pm
That truly brought tears to my eyes. As another “nearing middle aged” mother I found your post beautiful and thought provoking. I look forward to reading so much more.
Dayngr @ Dayngrous Discourse
April 2nd, 2007 at 2:24 pm
Nice vignettes! Reminds me of a post I once wrote about change….
April 2nd, 2007 at 2:24 pm
….But yours is more eloquent!
April 3rd, 2007 at 9:04 am
I love this and as a writer who worked on the student newspaper in college I can really relate! I’m still writing in various formats, it’s just morphed into so many different things over the years, as have I.